The Move

So as I'm sure I've mentioned before, I hate The Military state. No I loathe it here. Everytime I walk out my front door I want to dig my heart out with a spork.

So you think, how about you move? And believe me I've thought about it, I've thought about packing my shit and enrolling in every dental school out of state from either sides of the coasts but I can't afford it. Or rather, my parents can't afford it, and I'm all about not having school loans. So I'm stuck in a state school. But then, when I'm done am I totally running as far away as I possibly can. The places I've thought about running to are Portland Or., New York City, Washington State, San Fran Cali or Berkeley (right near the University.). Those are where I want to go. My heart and soul is set on Portland Or. because it is really the only place I can see myself being able to afford.

However in the back of my mind I'm horrified of leaving. Mainly because of my parents. My parents always said they would die here. They would build their dream house, with all of their animals, live off of the land and die here. I accepted this. And thus in my thoughts for wanting to move away I could never really get passed the fact that my parents would still be on the other side of the US. And it sucked. It made me not really want to move.
I also didn't want to leave because I love the trees here. I love driving down my street and having this long huge canopy of trees sheltering me. It's the same way on the freeways. It's gorgeous.

Oh and there is my fear or getting lose in new places but that is beside the point.

The point is, even though I've always wanted to move, I've never really seen myself getting any further then Maryland just because of my parents. And money.

Well....The other day my parents and I were talking and I mentioned how I would like to move to Portland Or. or Washington State because there are trees there, it's on the West coast, it's not here with these God Awful people in this shit hole of a state and it rains a lot in Washington (and I like that); I mentioned this and my mother said to me "Oh you'd like to move to Organ? I never knew that....I could possibly see moving there."

I thought she was fucking with me, but she was being serious. My parents are no longer happy here. They no longer really want to live here for the rest of their lives, and they're willing to move. After my dad whores the GI Bill and graduates from College.

But this news has got me all excited because this means, there is a slight possibility (I say slight because they might never move and my dad is taking back his agreement to be willing to move in the future) that my dreams of leaving this shit hole behind (while keeping in contact with my close friends who are unfortunate enough to live here) might actually come true.

I'm excited, even though it's like a 20% chance of happening and if it did it wouldn't be until two years from now. But just the possibility is awesome.